Sometimes I look at my daughter and I can’t believe that she’s mine, or even that I’m her mother. Why would God trust me enough to entrust this special little person to me? How is it that this is my second Mother’s Day?
I say all of this with a heart full of gratitude, I feel so blessed. I’ve always wanted to be a mom, but I never knew it would feel like this — this intense love, care, concern, worry, wonder, joy and again, love, love, love. While there are so many more feelings that swirl through my mind + heart, love precedes them all. So amazing how as a mother you can somewhat fathom the Father’s love for us. He’s given it to mother’s especially — the ability to love so unconditionally, so wholly, and so fully, so much so that we give up our lives for this love, so much that it hurts.
Being a mom has really challenged me to live life and live it with no regrets. I’ve made many mistakes in my 29 years and I have a long list of regrets, but I don’t want them passed onto my daughter. I want her to have the example of a mom who lived a real life — being honest about my mistakes, outspoken about my faith because it is our life, and preparing her in the lovely ways of being a virtuous girl, woman, wife, and mother.
“Suddenly, through birthing a daughter, a woman finds herself face to face not only with an infant, a little girl, a woman-to-be, but also with her own unresolved conflicts from the past and her hopes and dreams for the future… As though experiencing an earthquake, mothers of daughters may find their lives shifted, their deep feelings unearthed…” Elizabeth Debold and Idelisse Malave
I love reading the mama blog, Resolved2Worship. She is so honest about her faith, her mistakes, her children, her joys, and her Jesus. It’s so refreshing to see people who really truly live out what it means to be a follower of Christ. What she writes here nicely sums up my heart:
“A daughter’s need for her mother is biologic, and it continues on her whole life. Not only was my mother’s body the source of life for me but it was her face that I looked to, to see how I was doing. By seeing my mother’s eyes and experiencing her response to me, I learned crucial first lessons about my own worth. I’ve no doubt my daughters look into my eyes searching as well — watching my response, determining their worth.
The art of mothering these girls is to teach the art of living to them. Even more importantly, it’s to teach them where real life comes from: Life in Jesus Christ. I am still learning. I am still growing. With all my heart I want them to know we’re on this journey together – to become more and more like Christ. To humble ourselves and recognize our great need for a Savior. And to rejoice in His unconditional love, His undying acceptance, His great sacrifice so that we might know eternal life and live our lives as daughters of the King.
“May motherhood never be merely defined by our chores, or duties, our responsibilities, our discipline, our fears, our failures, our schooling choices, our rules, our regulations, our busy-moving about, or in something so crazy as the amount of children our body might happen to produce, or not produce.
Let it be defined by the passion we pour into discovering who our children are. Let it be defined by the willingness we have to be where they are, do what they are doing, love what they are loving. Let it be defined by the knowing and comprehending of the undeserved blessing we have in just being by their side.” [source] .
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You are an awesome mom! So glad that God has enabled you to be home with our precious little one. Beautiful post.
excellent post suz & precious pics of your lovely girlie.
i can’t believe she is yours either…think she might be mine…just give her to me.